Libre naman mangarap, di ba? Well, I have this habit of picturing myself in one place and I keep that picture in mind so that one day I'll be able to visit that place. So, here's my Taften Dream Destinations in the Philippines. Siyempre, dapat hindi tayo maging dayuhan sa sarili nating bansa kaya Hello Philippines muna ako bago mag Hello World!
1. Batanes
2. El Nido, Palawan
3. Pink Island, Zamboanga City
4. Mt. Pulag, Benguet
5. Plantation Bay, Cebu
6. Enchanted River, Hinatuan, Surigao del Sur
7. Camotes Island, Cebu
8. Apo Reef, Occidental Mindoro
9. Mt. Apo, Davao
10. Caramoan, Camarines Sur
Someday, somehow, I'll be able to visit these places and still be alive to tell the tale. (",)
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure you really are strong you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every goodbye, you learn...
Now, we are way past our subjective phase, when we can still do something to change our grades for this sem - all the acts of execution were accomplished.
For now, I'd just like to enjoy what's left of the summer, reflect on the academic year that was, and hope against hope that I would move on to the next level of craziness in l[aw]st school.
Here's an example of what lost school can do to a person who decided to learn law in the grand manner. (",) L[aw]st Story Lyrics by: Faithfaithfaith Sing to the tune of Love Story by Taylor Swift
I was a little young when I first saw you I close my eyes And the flashback starts I'm standing there Being grilled for my first recit
See the fright See the terror in my eyes I hear you ask some weird things, I don't understand And say "Oh girl, you will die in law school"
That you were Rowie M., you were throwing fireballs And my friends say omg she's teaching oblicon And I was crying on the staircase Begging you please don't fail me, and I said
Rowie M. don't fail me or I'll murder you when you're alone I'll be waiting in the dark and you can't run You'll be the prey and I'll be the hunter It's a law story, Rowie just say tres
So I sneak up right behind,hack you with this bolo You keep quiet 'cause you'll be dead if they knew So close your eyes Think about what you'll give me
'Cause you were Rowie M., I was an aggrieved student And my friends say spare her she's Angel's lawyer But you weren't listening to me I was begging you please don't fail me and I said
Rowie I'll take you somewhere we can be alone I'll be waiting, you can't hide and you can't run You'll be the witch and I'll be the angry mob It's a law story Rowie just say tres
Rowie just save me, and I'll spare you from everything This course is difficult, but its pre-req Don't be afraid, just help me out of this mess It's a law story Rowie just say tres Oh oh
I got tired of waiting Wondering if you were ever coming around My faith in you is fading When I met you on the outskirts of Malcolm, and I said
Rowie save me I can't take this course again I keep waiting but you never ever decide Is this in my head? I don't know what to think She knelt to the ground and pulled out a classcard
And said, "You passed faithfaithfaith You'll never have to kill me I know you, you'll make a mighty fine lawyer I talked to the dean, and he'll make you OPF now It's a law story baby I just said tres
Oh, oh, oh, oh
And here's a Piano-Cello version of this song which was arranged by Jon Schmidt for his little daughter.
How many things do we do out of reflex? According to my favorite encyclopedia, Wikipedia, reflex is an involuntary and nearly instantaneous movement in response to a stimulus.
One funny experience reminded me of this question this morning. I was singing my current favorite song (Seasons of Love, if you must know) when I walked out of the house. As I was riding the tryk, I tried to remember if I locked the front door or not. I couldn't, for the life of me, recall if I did lock the door. Then I thought of all the possible grim scenarios, in case I left the door open. The would-be burglars could not be charged with Art. 299, Robbery with force upon things, since they do not have to break any door or window - they just have to walk through the door which I left open. They can only be charged with Theft and Trespass to Dwelling. Wait, I digress. (got a bad case of Crim 2 hangover)
Anyway, to ease all my doubts, I asked the driver to go back so that I can check the door. Guess what, its locked! :) I apparently closed the door out of reflex since I go out of that door every morning. It has already become part of my system and has become a reflex action.
Now, back to the question. Or maybe, a more relevant question would be: How many of these reflex actions are so important that we should also savor it, put some value into it, and not merely do it out of reflex? Another interesting question would be: What actions should we do habitually so that eventually we can do it out of reflex?
and for once in your life, you need to walk away and suffer the loneliness.. because you believe that one day in the far and distant future, you’ll be happy. and not so cracked and broken anymore. and you won’t cry anymore. and when you smile, it won’t be a façade- it will be real. and that empty heart-shaped black hole in your chest will slowly fade back to a healthy pink color. and you’ll know that all the pain, all the sadness, everything you feel when you’re crying yourself to sleep.. it’s gone. and you’re stronger for it.
but until then, it’s going to hurt.. and you’re going to cry. and it’s going to continue to be the worst times of your life. and you’re going to wonder how long it’s going to take. and you will fake that smile until your face hurts. and you will drink until you forget. and then you will remember in the morning. and every day, it will hit you like a ton of bricks. and every night, you will wonder where he is, and what he is doing, and if he’s thinking about you too. and you will cry, you will cry, you will cry until you think you’re out of tears. but they will continue to fall...
"My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and will never leave me to face my perils alone.”
I got this list from Kaleidoscope Eyes and added some tell-tale signs. You might want to add too.
1. You consider dropping out of law school approximately every hour, but after that first semester you realized you were already in too much debt to be anything other than a lawyer.
2. The drama in your life now rivals that of high school.
3. You are truly and deeply unnerved by the thought of some of your classmates becoming attorneys
4. You wonder if that one professor who always seems angry and irritable and treats students’ minds as his personal playground is actually a sociopath or just didn’t get enough hugs as a child.
5. Sometimes during disagreements you are tempted to argue with complete legal basis the offending friend or family member without him understanding what you said.
6. You can’t remember if you decided to come to law school because you wanted to help people and make a difference in the world or because you hate yourself.
7. You think whoever first introduced the Socratic method into the law school curriculum should have his face lit on fire and then beaten out with a rake.
8. When someone is expressing their frustration or anger about something that is in any way related to the law, you can’t be sympathetic because you’re too busy figuring out in your head if they have a cause of action.
9. You hear about the death of an elderly friend or relative and wonder if they died intestate.
10. You have considered changing career paths to hot dog vendor, stilt walker, or career alcoholic.
Instead of saying, Thank God its Friday, you exclaim, Oh no, Its Friday. (meaning, you'll have to read up on the assigned readings for your whole day class on Saturday.)
You get into the habit of standing up when your professor walks in.
When you become more prayerful than before because you are not ready for recits.
You already forgot the meaning of sembreak and summer break because all your exams are super extended.
You gain several (okay, many pounds) because all you want to do after a traumatic exam is - EAT!
Just a quick post before I leave for Batangas... again! :)
I uberly enjoyed my first zipping session, thanks to my patient teacher, Lala, who happens to be my classmate from MA Psych. Its a small world after all. Anyway, zipping is not as easy as it looks. It needs eye-hand coordination movement and a certain level of concentration. Today, I just learned the basics. Forgot the terms though, but I do have to practice on a few routines. And I also bought my very first pair of poi. Yey! I'll elaborate on this later when I get back.
For now, I'm off to another spur of the moment adventure with good ole friends. :)
Yep! While everybody's out of town and enjoying their long weekend i, I had to report to the office and be the taumbahay. Well, I didn't mind it one bit. I thought I'd have more time to study and catch up on my readings. BUT, there were more exciting things in store for me.
First, I remembered that I wanted to look up on available classes about zipping. We were discussing about it in the office and I really want to try that sport. Then I chanced upon this multiply site Planet Zips and checked out their classes. Apparently, they are offering summer classes in QC so I was just in time for the second session. Another pleasant surprise, the instructor's name sounded familiar. So, I texted her and inquired if she's the same Lala from my MA Psych class. What a coincidence! She has always inspired me to try zipping especially when I see her zipping in the company video promoting the Ayala Malls. So, tomorrow, I'll be learning a new sport/hobby - zipping. Wish I could also try fire zipping in the future.
Second, I went out for lunch with a textmate, a cousin of a friend. haha! I don't think that was a date, t'was just a meet-up. At least, I got free lunch. :) It was a weird experience. I don't really like going out on dates because I'm uncomfortable of putting myself out there. And besides, I haven't "fully recovered" yet. As expected, it was a disaster. Sorry for saying this, but I didn't like his company one bit. He was looking for a wife, not a date. Afraid! Oh, I do hope I won't see him again. Harsh! :)
Third, I played badminton with my badminton buddies whom I haven't seen in a while. I missed playing that sport and I missed my playmates. ;p
Lastly, a friend invited me to check out a franchising business. At first I was apprehensive because I still haven't recovered from my burgerrific experience. I learned several lessons from that failed experiment but I consider it as my crash course in MBA. This new business has a big potential. But I think I'll take my time to study it first so that I wouldn't make the same mistakes all over again.
All in all, t'was truly a great day. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to open my books. Owel, there's always tomorrow. Procrastination at its finest! hehe
